GET A LIFE.

For one, you have friends of your own.

Go to them.

Not to MINE.

TAENA.

Shit.

After everything's been said and done, I can't help but wish.

There are things that I want to take back. Things that I wish I never said, did or thought of.

It's back to square one and I'm not even done crying. For 3 days now, tears have been coming on a steady flow. I wonder why.

I knew there was gonna be a time when these things were gonna happen.

I just didn't know it was gonna be this soon.

So, sorry.

I didn't want it to be this way.

Today was pretty dumb.

I kept on waking up waiting for my grandparents to call me about my ortho appointment, only to find out I didn't have one. So yeah, that was mistake number one, and that was around 9:30 or so.

Mistake number two, it was so friggin hot I just stuck to the couch and tv remote. The thing is, nothing was worth watching. For almost two hours I was channel surfin, and when my eyes had enough I decided to sleep.

Third mistake was not fixing the fan. The fan was on steady when I decided to doze off and by the time I woke up, probably 3 hours later I was soo hot. The sun was shining through the windows and I was sweaty icky hot.

But even if today was pretty dumb, I actually enjoyed it. Yep. Talk about weird, but I did.

Today got me thinking. As in serious advance thinking, about stuff I shouldn't be really worrying about (at least not at this age). I thought about my wedding. HAHAHAHA. What it'd be like, cause I saw some bridal magazines around here. I thought about the kind of house my family'd live in. I thought about what my kids'll be like, and how hard it was to give birth, (the thought just gives me shudders). Some pretty dumb stuff actually but I did have fun(? for lack of better word) imagining since this day was good as lethargic.

And now that it's 9:44 pm, Imma do some of my homework since I'm bloated as a butete. We had Vietnamese at Pho Hoa for dinner and dear Bob I ate a lot. And by a lot, I mean to the point where I had to unbutton my pants for my stomach to actually digest in peace. Lesson learned: Thou shall not wear skinny jeans to lamon sessions.

That pretty much sums up today. Just felt like blogging to kill more time. (:

Wala lang. Just thought of writing here. Judging by the fact that I will be the only one going to this, I might as well diba.

History just keeps on repeating it self. Can anything be more insane? 

I can't make myself believe that this is all a bad dose of deja vu. It just can't be happening.. Again... and again... Same old same old. It's just a cursed cycle. Once this is over, another'll be brewing just before my very eyes.

Why did it have to be so difficult? Why did it have to be like this?

This is way too vague. But yeah. Vague is good. So no one'll understand the way I feel about it. The way I want something and not want it at the same time.

Mental.

I'm too embarassed by all this.

HAHAHAHAHA. Amen.

Since I've practically abandoned this online collection of crap... I might as well write my heart out (? HAHAHA) with hopes of nobody ever visiting this again.

Of all the people I could've met.. You just had to be a complete ass and a big liar.

Cheers to me for writing my heart out.

HAHAHAHA.

This is lame.